Scared of a Real Chance

I’ve been racking my brains for so long now. When it comes to you I’m always out of answers except yes into everything that you want. I’m hypnotized. I’m stuck. It’s you, when it’s you it’s always different. My very principles on which I found my entire self changes just for you. With you I’m always back at square one… I love you.

God knows I’ve tried the other way around. But I still go back to you. You don’t help either. It’s like lightly you’re still holding my hand back. It hurts so much but I’m used to the pain there. I know we’re never gonna happen again, but I still hope. But at the back on my mind I know it never will. . .

It’s been like this for so long now. I wanna let go. At least I think I want to, or I have to. It’s been too long that I’m yours. Everyone makes fun of me coz I’m a lil stupid and a fool for you. I can’t tell them otherwise like the lil times we have together because you’ll say otherwise, which just makes me a mere fool again.

I can only bear so much… Now there came to a point where I’m actually scared to those who really care for me, who am truly sincere. I’m so used to the uncertainty and pain within me that a sign of a real chance scares me…

Been lotsa happenings for the past two weeks. But so far its been awesome. lemme upload some pics to summarize some of 'em coz I still need to study! hahaha.

Beach Party y'all!

Some after party at thai bar :) ...

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Then girls day out the day after...

Met Kate's new housemate then shisha and dinner followed, Ashwin, A not so bad guy. Actually, real nice ;)

Few days after, Cooking session in kate's new house. :)

Whew. Lotsa more pics and happenings. But apart from studying I need to get ready now coz Mona just called and us wanna go KFC. woooh! hahaha. Ciao!

Her.

She's in love. She realizes finally that she never really fell out of love with him. She thought it was her who knew better on what's happening. Oh how naive she was. It took time, but now she thinks that he never really fell out of in love with her either. Who were they fooling? No one it seems. They're both in love. She's off limits and he proved to her that he is as well. No commitment, no words, just the two of them.

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Cross the Line

I can be tolerant. I can be nice. I can be patient. I aint saying i'm perfect or super nice. But gaaaaaddd. I hate it when people force me to do anything, I hate to be tied down. I hate being caught off guard. And heck giving me an attitude if I somehow couldn't hide my abhorrence for it at times. I hate being cornered like its an interrogation session.

Even i have issues like that with fam and hell just someone do that to me and you expect a free pass? I try to be patient and considerate to other people. But there's a point where you crossed the line.