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Books books books. Its the thing thats keeping me sane for the few days. I've been bored as usual. Sigh. Can't wait for the KK trip. At least I have something to look forward right? :D

I've been reading books about magic, vampires, gods, elves, dragons, those sorta books. I looveee it, it drives my imagination wild. ;) haha. Also I've been in the internet (duuhh, of course). I've been talking to some friends. They too keeps me sane from all this boredom. Too bad they're busy too or else we would've painted the town red ;)

Oh yeaa.. my friend/ex made a video for me. Its a short video... but sweet of him anyway. heres the url. http://animoto.com/play/fKCfyAFH8ekcMISi6EX0cA He's such a sweetie. <3

I just felt like blogging so I can do something. lols. And to keep myself from thinking or else id be uber dramatic.

My dad wants me to take 2 extra units next sem. (wuusshh IM DEAD). I hope they'll allow me and more importantly I CAN MANAGE AND SURVIVE. so wish me luck.

Imma soon be a gameer. blame my friend/ex for that. He gave me these games and said they're fun. He said he's gonna teach me how to play dota as well. Hope I wont get addicted. lols. But Im pretty sure i won't (I hope) :P

Oooohhh francis is gonna include me in their band practices so that too I look forward too. He's gonna teach me drums and guitar and we'll be awesome! hahhaa. scratch that last part. :P

Anyways I think thats all the updates for now. Im "OK". "Nothing" is bothering me. So yea yea. Cioa!

Lovelots

glaiza

xoxo

What else can I say?

I miss you. I miss those times. Even though far away never letting each other out of sight easily. Even though it was through this electronic means. I loved every moment of it. And now im missing it. I hate to admit it that after pretending that I don't care anymore. I still do... What happened. I think you owe me an explanation. Perhaps.

I miss you soo much. mijo... ney... :'(

Sigh.

Books, reactions and restrained emotions

Its 4:00 am in the morning and here I am still awake and blogging. Well I just have to somehow let this weird sad and sorrowful feeling thats keeping me from my slumber right now.

I just read the last book of the this series I recently started. Its by Trudi Canavan and it got 3 books: The Magicians Guild, The Novice and The High Lord. The story revolves around this slum girl having powerful magic. She somehow finds that even though she's just a slum girl she stirred up the whole academy and unintentionally cause chaos or adventures unto her and the others around her. Anyways enough of that...

As I just told I just finished the last book, The High Lord. Here Sonea (the slum girl heroine) fell in love with Akkarin. And they travelled far and hard with baddies after them but at the same time making themselves fall in love with each other more and more. Its so sweet. Its like I wanna fall in love all over again. Its giving me this elated feeling while I read the parts where it involves there "relationship" (Kudos to the author, she's awesome). But HE DIED. He sacrificed himself (in a way you can't imagine) himself just for her. HE GAVE HER EVERYTHING HE HAVE TO HER (literally and other meanings as well. This is an excerpt from the book:

"A smile curled the edge if hi lips. His eyes were open, but fixed somewhere beyond her. As she moved, the hands about her wrists loosened and fell away.

"No, she whispered. 'Akkarin.' Grabbing his hands, she sent her mind inward. Nothing. Not even the slightest spark of life.

He had given her too much power.

He had given her everything.

With shaking hands, Sonea ran her fingers over her face, then bent forward and kissed his lifeless mouth.

Then she curled hereself around him and began to cry "

It saddened me. When I read that I cried and it just brought me down to tears. After reading the book (coz he died at the very near end) I felt really depress somehow on how it ended for both of them. Its as if I can feel the pain Sonea felt. And here I am ranting about it. Its silly maybe for other that id get so upset by this. But i dunno. It just bothered me. Sigh. And now I'm moping and ranting about it. Its like I can feel the pain. I feel so unhappy about it. Why does it have to be a sad ending for both of them? Why couldnt the author let him lived?! Sometime even in books they don't let happy endings huh? Sigh...

Being sad and jaded by the story it reminds me of my pains too. The fact that I still have issues that I haven't faced completely and resolved to not think about it. Tears are running down my cheeks as I type now. Sigh. When I said I LOVED him, I meant it. After days and weeks of being happy and him beeing sweet, he changed in an instant and I don't even know why. He turned cold towards me. It hurts so much. He have no idea. How could I have acceptance when I don't understand. :'( How does he expect me to hold up from all of this pain. and why is he doing this... He owes me an explanation. I don't know what will happen when I see him soon. I don't know what will I do... It seems foolish for me to think there's still a chance but every time I do it just hurts me so much but also painful to think and accept that there's no chance at all. I wish this kinda stuff doesn't happen to me often, I mean I didnt do anything wrong to my knowledge.. I asked him several times but he doesn't answer or else his answer is no. Damn silence...

Though I hate to admit it... Im missing you soo much. I dont know if you are. .. I don't know too if you still love me... or have loved me at all... But I do.

another excerpt from the book:

"Then she looked at Akkarin. He stood straighter, taller. A little thrill ran down her back, similar to the fear he once inspired.

Akkarin glanced at her and smiled. 'Stop leering at me.'

Sonea blinked innocently. 'Me? Leering?'

His smile widened, then it faded away. He walked up to her and pressed his hands gently against the side of her face.

'Sonea,' He began, 'If I don't- '

She put a finger to his lips, then pulled his head down so she could kiss him. He pressed her lips hard to hers, then drew her close against him.

'If I could send you far away, I would,' he said. 'But I know you'd refuse to go. Just... don't do anything impulsive. I watched the first woman I loved die I don't think I could survive losing the second.'

Sonea drew in a breathe in surprise, then smiled.

'I love you, too'

He chuckled then kiss her again... "

Bring It On and HairStyles

This everyone is Cody Longo. HAWT! to the max isn't he? haha. I'm not really those uber crazed fan type who goes mega hyper and super enthusiastic frenzy for a celeb crush. But I do however also go gaga with some of 'em. haha. I mean just the normal, "OMG he's hot" and all those stuff. Well here's one of those new found celeb crush. As mentioned his name is Cody Longo and I found him at the movie, Bring It On: Fight to the Finish. His role was this ace bball player of the uni and also the brother of the nemesis in the movie. Evan was his name in the movie and he's just so lovable. Gaaahh Gaahhh. hahaha. He's effin hoot. A hottie with a body too. He's got this eyes that can just make you melt and a smile that can waaahhh. Can't even describe it well. lols. Anyways that probably it. He's HAWT. period. lols

The movie was good though. I mean Bring It On: Fight to the Finish. It starts like the other Bring It On Movies (with a dream) though I think the previous ones got more vava-voom on the choreography. Well thats only my opinion though. hehe. Another one that got my attention was Rachel Brooke Smith, she plays the baddie cheerleader. But she's gorgeous! Hot bod too. She's an awesome dancer and I like her hair! I googled her and she really is a dancer. So yeaa. Imma do her hair if I can one of these coming days. Hopefully it works for me too. hehe. Here it is...

This wasn't her hairstyle in Bring it on, it was more like she have side bangs with much volume on top and thin on the bottom. It was gorgeous too. That was my original plan but I saw this while I googled her and I think this is pretty. Though I won't make my hair that long though. Or else I wouldn't hear the end of it from my mom. lols.

So anyways thats it for now. I'd probably be blogging more these days just about anything under the sun as I'm bored. hehee. Cioa for now!

Lovelots,

glaiza xoxo

Lazy Sundayy

Big HI! (*waves). Its Sunday today and me and my family was suppose to go out and well.. just go out of the house. Instead we woke up late, had brunch and ended up watching Richie Rich on HBO. lols. So much for the plan. Anyways its really a lazy lazy Sunday, like what they're suppose to ;) After the movie everyone did there own thing. So here I am just been at the computer for the whole entire time except when I tried cooking this recipe I saw on the internet. It didnt turn out bad as I thought it would be so 3 cheers for me! YAY! heehee.

I got nothing to do. I feel so lazy. I'm bored. I wanna have fun and socialize but at the same time I wanna be left alone. (sheesh, hows that possible right?) Anyways. Since I was bored this past few days I went camwhoring with bro's nikon d40. Its not as grand as the other dslr's out there but i like it all the same :) Vainness alert here. haha. Its not my best pictures but I enjoyed it all the same. so here goes.

i like this the most! ;)

puff!!!

"your touch still lingers"

chubby-lita!

getting chubby are we?

Cioa!

loveLots!

glaiza xoxo!

Missing anyone lately?

Sads. But true at some point. :(

Tears Fall in My Heart

This poem is not a work of mine. This is a poem by the passionate Paul Verlaine. You might not recognize his name, neither did I. But I found this poem accidentally when I opened this book called "100 Best Poems of All Time" that my brother have given me. I just opened the book randomly and this was what I read. I fell in love with the poem. I dunno, I just like it mucho and I realize how small and lame my poems are. haha. Maybe, or not really. hehe. Anyways, here's the poem.

Tears fall in my heart

as rain falls on the town;

what is this numb hurt

that enters my heart?

Ah, the soft sound of rain

on roofs, on the ground!

To a duelled heart there came

ah, the song of the rain!

Tears without reason

in the disheartened heart.

What? no trace of treason?

This grief's without reason.

It's far the worst pain

to never know why

without love or disdain

my heart has such pain!

-end-

a note cause by randomness:

-"I value myself for almoset all i want to do, I do it with passion. Especially when loving someone. For passion is a powerful thing. A passion is a wonderful driven emotion. Passion. Fiery Passion. "- gLaiza

Unfinished.

Through the clouds she went

Feeling the winds so cold and misty

She longs for a warmth to be felt

For the icy chambers of her heart to melt

Seconds, hours, days, she waited

And alas! Melt it did

She felt warm like the sun above

With the glowing feeling she oh so loved

Shouting to the world and beneath

That she was in heaven and beyond

Coz he came bringing her passionate fire

Oh he was her hearts desire

Floating she was in that cloud nince

No fear, no hindrance, no worries

She was so sure it was forever

Forever came too soon before she can recover

......

Hola! Hmmmm I wrote this while I was on the way to Tagaytay and Batangas. I was in Tagaytay early in the morning and damn was it chilly. Then otw to Batangas, the mountains are so misty adn foggy. I liked it very mucho though. :) I'd like to have a place in Tagaytay someday. Nice place. Nicer than Baguio right now I daresay. Anyways this poem.. well.. I feel like its not quite finished and please don't ask me about the inspiration or i'll just burst into tears. LOL. I haven't "signed" it coz I really feel its not finished yet. I'll finish it some other day and continue "HER" story. So yeaa. I'll end this post right now too. So cioa! Hope you enjoyed reading the poem, and if not, errhhh at least im still thankful you read it. hehe. Adios!