I just read the last book of the this series I recently started. Its by Trudi Canavan and it got 3 books: The Magicians Guild, The Novice and The High Lord. The story revolves around this slum girl having powerful magic. She somehow finds that even though she's just a slum girl she stirred up the whole academy and unintentionally cause chaos or adventures unto her and the others around her. Anyways enough of that...
As I just told I just finished the last book, The High Lord. Here Sonea (the slum girl heroine) fell in love with Akkarin. And they travelled far and hard with baddies after them but at the same time making themselves fall in love with each other more and more. Its so sweet. Its like I wanna fall in love all over again. Its giving me this elated feeling while I read the parts where it involves there "relationship" (Kudos to the author, she's awesome). But HE DIED. He sacrificed himself (in a way you can't imagine) himself just for her. HE GAVE HER EVERYTHING HE HAVE TO HER (literally and other meanings as well. This is an excerpt from the book:
"A smile curled the edge if hi lips. His eyes were open, but fixed somewhere beyond her. As she moved, the hands about her wrists loosened and fell away.
"No, she whispered. 'Akkarin.' Grabbing his hands, she sent her mind inward. Nothing. Not even the slightest spark of life.
He had given her too much power.
He had given her everything.
With shaking hands, Sonea ran her fingers over her face, then bent forward and kissed his lifeless mouth.
Then she curled hereself around him and began to cry "
It saddened me. When I read that I cried and it just brought me down to tears. After reading the book (coz he died at the very near end) I felt really depress somehow on how it ended for both of them. Its as if I can feel the pain Sonea felt. And here I am ranting about it. Its silly maybe for other that id get so upset by this. But i dunno. It just bothered me. Sigh. And now I'm moping and ranting about it. Its like I can feel the pain. I feel so unhappy about it. Why does it have to be a sad ending for both of them? Why couldnt the author let him lived?! Sometime even in books they don't let happy endings huh? Sigh...
Being sad and jaded by the story it reminds me of my pains too. The fact that I still have issues that I haven't faced completely and resolved to not think about it. Tears are running down my cheeks as I type now. Sigh. When I said I LOVED him, I meant it. After days and weeks of being happy and him beeing sweet, he changed in an instant and I don't even know why. He turned cold towards me. It hurts so much. He have no idea. How could I have acceptance when I don't understand. :'( How does he expect me to hold up from all of this pain. and why is he doing this... He owes me an explanation. I don't know what will happen when I see him soon. I don't know what will I do... It seems foolish for me to think there's still a chance but every time I do it just hurts me so much but also painful to think and accept that there's no chance at all. I wish this kinda stuff doesn't happen to me often, I mean I didnt do anything wrong to my knowledge.. I asked him several times but he doesn't answer or else his answer is no. Damn silence...
Though I hate to admit it... Im missing you soo much. I dont know if you are. .. I don't know too if you still love me... or have loved me at all... But I do.
another excerpt from the book:
"Then she looked at Akkarin. He stood straighter, taller. A little thrill ran down her back, similar to the fear he once inspired.
Akkarin glanced at her and smiled. 'Stop leering at me.'
Sonea blinked innocently. 'Me? Leering?'
His smile widened, then it faded away. He walked up to her and pressed his hands gently against the side of her face.
'Sonea,' He began, 'If I don't- '
She put a finger to his lips, then pulled his head down so she could kiss him. He pressed her lips hard to hers, then drew her close against him.
'If I could send you far away, I would,' he said. 'But I know you'd refuse to go. Just... don't do anything impulsive. I watched the first woman I loved die I don't think I could survive losing the second.'
Sonea drew in a breathe in surprise, then smiled.
'I love you, too'
He chuckled then kiss her again... "
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