What to do?

Only few more days till we meet each other again. Whew. Should I avoid you till I can? Should I ignore you when we meet? Simply put, should I act immature and be awkward fir the rest of our life? Ok that part was an exaggeration. But my answer, NO. Of course I wouldn't be that shallow and act all bitter. I'd be all normal and be friendly like we used to be =) I mean what else can I do, I hate awkwardness and anyway that was what our last talk was all about right? Start over and be all friends and stuff?

Well anyway thats my plan. Im just hoping he wouldn't ignore me when I say hi or something. That would be humiliating. Oh well he's not that rude or insensitive. Right? I hope. To be honest it still hurts so bad. Its gonna be hard to see him at first. And prolly the next time we meet and the next one and so on. Its hard to look into that eyes of yours and know that you're not mine anymore. Well I think I never had you anyways. Sad but true. As Marwan reminded me last night, truth hurts. But, (SIGH) I gotta bear with it. Just suck it up, be tough, and work it. Its not like I'm not superwoman. haha. Yay me!!! (Self motivation. lols)

Fringe fringe!

Yes. Finally. I've done it. I got my fringe. YAY! I've been planning these for ages and here TA-DA! here it is. Sooo what do yah think? My sis says its weird. My cuz says its good. Hmmm.. But to be honest Im having a hard time rockin this look. Not because I think It doesnt look good, its because its kinda bothering in the eyes. =P But all in all I think its a nice change but I wont be having this hairstyle anytime soon again. I think its not for me. For now though I'd be happy to work it! =)

Its JR

MR. John Ray, Here's your poem. As requested (more like demanded) =P . Hope you like it and can be useful on Monday. I still can't believe I'm doing your public speaking homework for yah. Sigh. If I was there beside you I would've whacked you already. haha. I know its kinda too formal or dramatic or serious -iish. But thats all I can write for now. So yeaa here yah go!

Who Am I?

Who am I?

I'm a boy I'm a man

I'll show you I'm my father's son

I can be extreme and mild

With a heart and soul so wild

Who am I

I'm a companion,your friend

Always here for a hand to lend

Will never leave your back when you're blue

Neither your front and side too

Who am I

I'm a dreamer, one who pursue

With a strong will I go through

Never giving up ever going

Till I reach the end I am growing

Who am I

No mask, No disguise, I am free

My passion my thoughts for everyone to see

NObody else but I, as it should be

I am myself I am me

That Night

Wandering alone that night

Her eyes, staring into nothing

She walks aimlessly

In a trance she was.

She smiles and laugh

But her eyes betrayed her

She ran away and escaped

As tears hones to fall, a sob escaped.

Cold winds flew her away

The night suiting her sould

Lights twinkle brightly

As her heart faded slowly.

Stillness was a welcome

To her thoughts so chaotic

She liked the silence and mist

A moment that was hers

like nothing exist...

>>Salut! Here's another one of my works. I started to write this when I was in the hotel in KK. The night where I needed to be distracted so I walked into the mall and just walk and tried to "shop". I got almost locked in in the mall that night. hahaha. The gate connecting my hotel and the mall was closed and so are the 2 other gates that I tried. Eventually I just asked directions and I got back safely. ;) So the inspiration was my own experience... That night was the night that I got to know that he have a new gal. So yea.. Anyways hope you like it! Share your thoughts! =)

KK trip

Hola! Today is a very lazy MONDAY. 0.o How often do you say that? haha. I was busy today about my Twitter account. I'm tryin' it out. =)

Hey so I've been in KK last week for 4 days and 3 nights. It was awesome and tiring! Whew. My brother and his team mates got some real competition on that Swim Meet. Seriously. They were STOMPED. But it was a good experience for them. And for me too! Daymn those swimmers have serious HOT ABS ISSUES. hahaha. Well anyways here are some photos =)

It all started with a almost empty Brunei airport. Seriously, it was disturbing how non crowded it was. haha.

Took some of this yummy ice blended mocha before boarding in. I would've loved a mocha frap instead but sadly no starbucks. SADS. =(

Shots Shot from bro while waiting. Ugh I hate waiting.

Well here's my ride otw to KK. Wish theyd reconsider bout having the passengers to walk. Oh well.

Some photos otw to the hotel. It was a long way I tell you. But I enjoyed it all the same. The Likas Bay is sooo nice. That was my first time going to that part of KK and to be honest i loved it! I'm gonna go back soon enough and explore more of it! =)

Here's the our hotel. Novotel. Its not exactly the 5-star luxury hotel but the location is goood. Its right next to 1 borneo which is the biggest shopping mall in KK, i think. But its way nice. Startbucks, CK, MNG, and all those classy and decent shops. Loved it! The part where its located kinda reminds me of Boni back home. =)

When we got to the hotel me and my lil bro started cam whoring! WooT Woot! well mostly me. heehee. Here are some of the oh so vain shots!

So this was practically where I am the whole day when I'm not in the mall or in the hotel. I watched and support my brother and his team mates on this Swimming Meet. Whew, their competitions were awesome. I mean seriously. These kids are like already competing on national and international levels. My bro's team was crushed. haha.

So anyway. I like the trip though it was very very stressful and tiring. I didn't do much sight seeing but i'd definitely come back on that part of KK. =)

Untitled

Hey hey! =) I wrote this one while watching in the swimming meet that my brother was on. They were the inspiration. Watching them struggle and swim. heehee. I can't think of a title for this, seriously. haha. would you care to suggest? Anways here it goess..

I watch them go

I see them move

Take a step

Overcome the depth

I'm left alone

I try to follow

Seems so far

Like that bright star

The cold burns me

It numbs my soul

The wave it drowns me

wish along with it my misery

I stoop up at last

Rising with my breathe taken away

I feel the wind, the breeze i can't see

It whispers a new promise to me...

-glaizaMarie-

Please not an Eating Disorder

I think I'm getting sick :| Oh God.. please let me not be starting to be bulimic or anorexic. Cause these past few days I've been eating way less. I try to eat normally but i just don't have the appetite sometimes. My eating time is way off. I'd eat at 3pm then have snacks at about 1am. Sometimes id just be eating once a day and even that one meal id just eat a little. And when I see something that I'd like to eat I'd just take one or two bites then I'm done. This is the worst part... I'd vomit everytime i feel full. Or just have that gag reflex. I'm worried. I didn't tell this to my mom or dad cause I don't wanna freak them out and my mom tends to over react to things like this. But my sister actually notices these things and she knows. She's also kinda worried. Sigh...

Please... I know I've been obsessed with losing a lil weight but not this way and I never wanted to starve myself. Gosh no. I'm praying that this is just nothing. I don't wanna be bulimic or anorexic. That would be horrible. :s

Lovelots and really worried,

glaiza

xoxo

That Guy

Sigh. I think I met a second guy who can practically shake my whole world up. You know, that guy... Who you're willing to give anything, you're everything. That person who you're willing to sacrifice the whole world. A person you who can make you put up with just about anything. The one who you LOVE despite of whatever things he does. Even he does all of the things you HATE, or posses qualities that you just can't stand with. The one who LOVE and don't even know why. and it beats the hell outta you.

That guy you just can't let got. That person unbearable to lose even just the thought of it. That person who can make you feel euphoric but at the same time the one who can make you jaded. The person who you can be yourself with but at the same time feel self conscious.

I don't know. These statements are so paradoxical right? Go figure. Oh universe,BITE ME. Sigh.

Lovelots
glaiza