What to do?

Only few more days till we meet each other again. Whew. Should I avoid you till I can? Should I ignore you when we meet? Simply put, should I act immature and be awkward fir the rest of our life? Ok that part was an exaggeration. But my answer, NO. Of course I wouldn't be that shallow and act all bitter. I'd be all normal and be friendly like we used to be =) I mean what else can I do, I hate awkwardness and anyway that was what our last talk was all about right? Start over and be all friends and stuff?

Well anyway thats my plan. Im just hoping he wouldn't ignore me when I say hi or something. That would be humiliating. Oh well he's not that rude or insensitive. Right? I hope. To be honest it still hurts so bad. Its gonna be hard to see him at first. And prolly the next time we meet and the next one and so on. Its hard to look into that eyes of yours and know that you're not mine anymore. Well I think I never had you anyways. Sad but true. As Marwan reminded me last night, truth hurts. But, (SIGH) I gotta bear with it. Just suck it up, be tough, and work it. Its not like I'm not superwoman. haha. Yay me!!! (Self motivation. lols)