Its in the past

Remember I mentioned from my previous post i'll post some old poems, well here's the first one! This one is actually a compilation of verses I wrote at different time so it may seem a lil bit unorganized. Blank moments when I was taken back to my past ;) Here you go...

Another night has passed

A moment when you crossed my mind

It all comes crashing back

And it makes me lose my track

I can hear my mind saying

I hate you so much

I heard my heart whispering

I miss your touch

I was in way too deep

I fell way too far

Now that you’re gone

I cry as i strum my guitar

As I walk away and leave

After all has been said and done

My mind was clouded and a blur

My heart breaking had begun

I was blinded

and never saw it coming

I should’ve known

and shoul’ve started running

Its funny...

Its payback time.

This phrase might be something you'd expect from an enemy right? Well what if its from a friend? Yeah. Sucks right. I know you should be grateful that they helped you but it kinda... changes a perception when they actually slam it in your face and take it up on you that you need to return the favor. Don't get me wrong, i know it should be a two way, but it does kinda affect your perception as i said when it is forced and said. Oh well. Are they really friends? Can we call 'em that?

Tats all I wanna rant about I guess. Till next time! :)

Bruises and Scratches VS Butterflies in stomach!

Who cares about bruises? the scratches? the swelling? the pain? All I can feel are the things fluttering in my stomach.. BUTTERFLIES. And even though we lost, I was happy tonight. With the friends, the rain and some other persons, also I got my revenge in a way .... The rain was sooo romantic,.. Oh fine, yes, I think im.. in love? if not.. im happy? I dunnnoooo. I just can't stop smiling. I feel like im in cloud nine and because of him i can't not be happy. Lets just hope this one this one sticks. But I just know that I feel good and happy right now. =) I'm falling... :)

Aaaahh I gotta go and sleep. I have an appointment with him on my dreams.

Lovelots!

xoxo

glaizaMarie!

Nostalgic

I was reading some old messages, conversations, and writings. I feel very nostalgic. I wanna laugh and cry at the same time, and no im not crazy. Its just been so crazy if you look at where you've been. :) Bad things, good things, funny, devastating, all those. The poems I wrote, hey i wasnt that half bad if I do say so myself. So maybe tommorow i'll start reposting some of 'em here in my new blog. Not bad eh?

I just finished my report. Well OUR report. Im so relieved and happy. It has driving me nuts for a whole week now. At least thats one down. So anyways I gtg sleep now. watch out for the re-publishing of my poems!

"Screw being emo, I’ll get what I want"

-I wrote this about 3 days ago? or something like that. Just didn't have the time to post it. Nor the connection. nyways, here it goes.

I was feeling so stuffy in my room so I went outside to take a walk at the side of the lake. IT was sunset then and it was refreshing. The air, the warmth, the light. Then I sat at the table, our spot, one where we talked about our condensed stories and one where you said “never mind everything, I just want to spend time with you”.

Then I started thinking and being nostalgic, how it was, what used to be, I can’t believe it all happened and how it could just end. I was feeling helpless and was being emo for awhile.

I got this feeling which is not what I call nice but not also bad, I felt serene.

I want those days back, I want so many things, I know this sound so selfish and spoiled. But it’s not like that, it’s more deep seeded than that and I can’t put it into words. Then I kinda’ thought of something, I’m tired of just think how it used to be, how everything ended, and how I want things.

It’s time for me to stop thinking of just how I want things. I need to get them. I didn’t say that I didn’t make an effort before, because I did, really did. But now, I think it’s time to work on it. I may not succeed but at least I give it my best shot right? “Screw being emo, I’ll get what I want”