"Screw being emo, I’ll get what I want"

-I wrote this about 3 days ago? or something like that. Just didn't have the time to post it. Nor the connection. nyways, here it goes.

I was feeling so stuffy in my room so I went outside to take a walk at the side of the lake. IT was sunset then and it was refreshing. The air, the warmth, the light. Then I sat at the table, our spot, one where we talked about our condensed stories and one where you said “never mind everything, I just want to spend time with you”.

Then I started thinking and being nostalgic, how it was, what used to be, I can’t believe it all happened and how it could just end. I was feeling helpless and was being emo for awhile.

I got this feeling which is not what I call nice but not also bad, I felt serene.

I want those days back, I want so many things, I know this sound so selfish and spoiled. But it’s not like that, it’s more deep seeded than that and I can’t put it into words. Then I kinda’ thought of something, I’m tired of just think how it used to be, how everything ended, and how I want things.

It’s time for me to stop thinking of just how I want things. I need to get them. I didn’t say that I didn’t make an effort before, because I did, really did. But now, I think it’s time to work on it. I may not succeed but at least I give it my best shot right? “Screw being emo, I’ll get what I want”