Not that honey

I gotta tone down on my niceties. Its giving 'em a whole different idea. Gaaaadd. Confusing, infruriating, FUNNY. Sheesh.

Saying that it wouldnt work and it was too easy? Honey its not called flirting, its called being polite and friendly. Be sure with your conclusions before you end up embarrassing yourself 'kay? And actually hurting people. You clearly don't know me hunz. It's just been a few days since you've met me. And here you are actin' up. Get it right honey ;)

My 26th and Pride

There she walked with a book in hand

Expectation in another, she headed in the sand

A smile appeared when saw a friend

Ocean waves and sweet breeze in trend

With laughter and stories in the middle

Her mood was up, it was no riddle

Another page to fill, she tried to remove

She finds a person and she was on the move

In sight he was but occupied too

She hesitated to disturb and give him a clue

The clock ticks, the book started to thin

Disappointment arise and a frown begin

This wasn't the first, it was the second

He promised not to, thats what she reckon

A friend he was though not it seemed

Words are nothing, though it makes her wanna scream

Though it he doesn't appear to be, he was a friend

Teases me all the way, sometimes with no end

Not so subtle at times, but she knows how to handle it

She tried her best, though its hard a bit

Is it pride that was hurt or something different?

Sensible is it or mere stupidity at present

She was hurt though she tried not to be

A smile she tried and just write it free

Oh my Sunday!

The cough and slight fever should've been a tip when I woke up this morning or the bad dream before that that this day wouldn’t be… interesting? different? bad? I don’t really wanna call it bad because it wasn’t that bad.

I watched Sorcerer’s Apprentice today and I gotta say it was very cool. But I forgot my glasses >.< (another one). The movie was awesome. I liked the way they tried to rationalize everything. All in all, I liked the movie.

Otw home was the real star moment of the day. I was gonna grab my phone then BAM! It wasn’t there. I was practically having a mini heart attack. L L L It wasn’t in any of my bags or under the chair or anywhere in the car. I didn’t wanna tell my dad coz, well, you know why. I was frantic. I tried calling the cinema’s I went to but freaking busy.

When I got back, phone calls were made again and I have to call on a favor from a friend which was granted quickly. Im so thankful. In the end I get to call my phone and somebody answered. Gaaad I’m such in luck. And she was on her way back to KB as well. Thank goodness. I’m so relieved. I still have luck in my sleeve. Whew.

The whole time my heart was pounding like crazy. But I guess “All’s well that ends well” .

Dear new gf

Me passed!

The clock was ticking and I was waiting. The whole day I was useless. I was freaking out and practically was having a semi-coma state. Just an observation. I do not function well when its like that, who does anyway. I was trying to keep my mind off things talking to some of my friends. Shikhar was happy enough to do the job with his never ending ways to bring down someone's self-esteem or bullying and as he said while I'm "vulnerable"some more. lols. Few hours before 12 am I was tossing and turning on the bed. I was watching a movie but the next second I'm reading a book then to the computer. I was hopeless. This happens every semester as Jonathan said. He was there for the last 2 freak out during pre-result season. But this time I was really worried. My chemistry especially. I was expecting to fail or hopeful enough for a supplementary exam but when my ID number was not on the supp list I was hopeful but at the same time terrified. It could only mean I passed or I have to repeat the unit. :|

My friends tried to console and comfort me that I shouldn't worry too much, that I'm sure to have good results but none actually worked. Then few minutes before midnight I was still talking to friends when Syafiq said results was out. I was having a mini heart attack while I was logging on to OASIS and it seemed that the world went on slow motion phase. Sheesh. But as I saw the my results.

RELIEF. I passed all of my units.

My results were all good except for my Chemistry. But I'm thankful that I passed. :) I was soooo happy. At least I could leave that sem behind. But I gotta work harder next sem so at least there'd be more assurance. Im so thankful. I'm happy and happy for my other classmates. I'm also praying for the others that's having supp. Lotsa lucks!

Are you this or that?

I'm so gonna make a poem outta this, but for now, here's a thought. :')

"I've been there for you every time she takes a piece of your heart, every time she breaks it apart, every pain, sorrow, and tears she caused. To see you go back to her again just like tat makes me wonder if what i'm feeling right now proves that you are a real friend or much more than that to me"

-gM17♥

Food Guilt

Was watching GG (Gilmore Girls) then tummy was complaining for some food. So walking walking into the kitchen to get something. *digging digging* into the fridge, into the pantry, into the drawers. I found some corn, thought I could cook it with butter like what they do in Miri, and then I found the rocky road ice cream on the freezer. But know what? I ended up with a healthy yummy yogurt. Sigh.

I'd feel so guilty if I picked either of the two left options. :( I feel so fat. Oh yes say it, "You're such a girl"... But I can't help it. I am gaining weight. Going to the country club a few days a week doesn't really help. And my love for food ain't a sweet thing for this issue either.

Ugh. Why issit so hard to lose weight while it's so freakiin easy to gain. Just sit around and do nothing. Sigh. I miss my body before I went here in Brunei. Arrgghhh. If Brunei wasn't so damn boring. Oh yes, it is connected. Just think hard. Anyhow, tata for now!

♥ just me

♥

"Ocean"

So dad got this free tickets to watch at the Empire and he gave it to me and my sis. So sis and I went this afternoon only the two of us! Long winding road, I, sis, and music. LOUD music. It was awesome.

Well I think calling it a movie is not appropriate. Ocean is more like a documentary. It was a real eye opener. You could say it was a typical documentary. With the 'up and lower' it strategy. It showed the wonders of the vast ocean. Its amazing inhabitants, their culture, behavior. It's wondrous. How majestic and unique each creature is. The connections, relationships, between each of them. And not only between them, but with us too. The amazing symbiosis between whales and many other humongous sea creatures and a bluestreak cleaner wrasses or an anemone and a clown fish. But not only between creatures but between the same species too, like the graceful synchronization of sardines, intense same pulse of jelly fishes, or maybe the beautiful dance of dolphins.

After showing the wonderful mysteries of ocean, it shows humans destroying it. It was depressing. When i was seeing those whales, turtles, sharks, and stingrays and getting trapped in the net then the camera closes up on their eyes. Then it portrays a battlefield-like environment with all the blood and weapons between humans and those creatures. The cruelty of us humans. One more scene I could not forget was when they threw away a shark they caught back into the ocean after cutting all its fins. The shark sank into the bottom bleeding without anything to support and direct it to as its fin and tail was gone. It was just there, lying at the corals it landed to, struggling to move and bleeding its eyes like it was teary. That was just heartbreaking and depressing. :(

The ocean is vast and majestic. It holds many mysteries that we try to unfold. It tries to replenish and survives. But alas we take too much from it. Much more and faster than it can heal itself. We destroy it slowly and endanger its inhabitants not knowing we too endanger ourselves in the near future. There's no replacement sometimes with this things. Sometimes all we have is one shot. With these doings the only chance these creatures can survive is within the confinements of an aquarium or in a mere petri dish containing its DNA. How much more will we destroy till realization comes?

As I said the documentary was a real eye opener. Disney had done a good job. And I think it is appropriate for them to show it to my dad's company's employers. [It was only showed for them in the whole Brunei i think] They have a huge deep sea drilling on the blueprint so I think this was served as a warning and a caution. Hope the company's geologist and environmentalist knows their job well.

well this is just peachy

"well i have been

really busy

and... I gotta say

I'm In love once again...

She is just amazing

and...

if she does well on her exams

Ill get to be with her for a whole year

she will move to the US

and we can finally be together

this

is

the last stride

i just have to wait till november

for my happily ever after"

~